My New Beginning

Wow! I am pumped for this new adventure!

"And suddenly you know…Its time to start something new and trust the magic of new beginnings." - unknown.

I haven't been this excited for a new opportunity than I am right now. Since having the idea suggested to me, I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. What would it look like? Who would read it? Can I do something like that? I mean who am I anyway, right?

The swirling questions and doubts I had is such an unconscious thought process for me that I almost talked myself out of the idea. What changed for me this time was a belief in myself and what I am capable of. I took a chance and here it is. My blog. Maple Mindset.

With this space, I hope to share my journey of rediscovery & growth. I have anxiety; it can be debilitating, dark & lonely. In 2019, I had decided that I can no longer allow my thoughts to control me. I temporarily stepped away from my job as a Registered Nurse in the Intensive Care Unit & contacted a therapist. A total cold call because I was desperate for help.

At that time, I found myself crying every day. I was constantly thinking to myself "I have so much to be grateful for, why do I feel so empty & sad?" It all changed when I was met with a financial hurdle and it nearly broke me. My husband came home to find me crying uncontrollably on our bedroom floor; completely defeated & empty. I was consumed by darkness and no longer knew my way around.

Therapy has been my saviour. Its my safe place to release all my thoughts, no matter how tough they can be to tell another human being. I never wanted the people around me to know I had negative thoughts or that I felt lost. I have been a people pleaser for so long, how could I possibly let people around me know I suffer daily? With therapy there is no judgement, it’s a safe space to be myself. I now look forward to my sessions, to reconnect with my goals, sort through my feelings & learn something new about myself.

I have also found growth through my yoga practice. I immersed myself in the culture of the yoga studio. What I found was that yoga stopped being just about my physical body, but a place for spiritual & emotional growth. Getting to my mat & going to the studio, has become a highlight of my day.

As of today, I am not cured of my illness, but I am in control and I actively allow myself to ride the waves of my emotions. I have worked on the frontlines of this pandemic while trying to put me first. Lets be honest, it hasn’t always been easy. There are days that are tough, full of heavy negative thoughts. I am constantly learning to allow myself the space to feel these feelings & release them. On the "good days" I am aware of my conscious choices - to be in the moment - while not allowing my thoughts to dictate my day and looking for the positive.

Maple Mindset is a space to speak my truth & grow through gratitude. A maple tree is rooted in the ground, standing strong, growing & changing with the seasons. Life can be a miracle when you believe in yourself & believe in the possibilities that anything can happen. Manifest that magic. Find yourself again & love that beautiful person. I hope I can help you feel less alone on your journey while I share mine.

"Confidence makes us beautiful and it comes from accepting yourself. The moment you accept yourself, it makes everything better." - Diane Van Furstenberg

xo Dee

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